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Welcome back. I’ve had several new ideas come to me lately, but I haven’t yet taken the time to write them down. I wanted to add in some more information from last year because often when I read stuff from ‘Future Me‘ I find that what I’m writing about now is very similar to things I wrote a year ago. Sometimes I get upset at that because I feel that I’m still going over the same ground over and over again and not getting anywhere, but other times I figure that I’m now looking at these issues from an entirely new perspective. As Tom Brown Jr. says, it’s important not to get caught in the rut of ‘the same old thing’. So, in my recent writings I’ve been writing a lot about joy and experiencing life as joy, and when I look back a year I see that I was writing about joy then too. Each time I approach this it seems like a new discovery. Maybe it is…
December 2, 2008
Okay, two things to write about today. I woke up this morning with a thought running through my head that I’ve been lying to everyone, especially myself about the way things are in my life and because of that I have to stay here and I can’t move forward with my life, and on and on and on… Bullshit. Pure BS but I’ve been telling that lie to everyone because I didn’t feel I could tell them that what I want is a nice quiet life where I read, walk write, work on the computer, make photographs, go kayaking, travel, etc. And so I’ve ‘pushed’ all of this away from me and said, ‘Well, it’s not my fault.’ More bullshit. A well-rehearsed and oft-repeated lie. It goes back to when I believed my inner self was working against me, and from those days I’ve been relying on, waiting for, pleading with the Universe, Source Energy, All That Is, etc. to help me. With little result.
And small wonder, too! Like the poem, ‘And a Meadowlark Sang’ I’ve been given answers, insights, revelations, education, pointers, support, etc. I have chosen not to move forward largely because I’ve believed that doing so would mean doing things I don’t want to do, that getting what I want would demand sacrifices beyond what I was willing to make. And as Seth would say, no matter what I’ve told myself I haven’t believed that I create my own experience. I’ve found ways to deny it, trotted out excuses hidden behind beliefs, anything to prevent myself from actually receiving what I’ve asked myself to provide. And this isn’t about anyone else, not about my inner self, my whole Self, Source, the Universe, or All That Is. This is all about ‘me’, the me that I’ve known myself to be. And this isn’t a tirade against myself or anyone else, either. It’s actually a very good thing. I am a very, very powerful creator. And I’ve demonstrated that by doing exactly what I’ve warned others about. I am such a powerful creator I’ve been using that power to create a reality where I pretend I don’t have any power. I have become a very powerful deny-er.
I am a creator. I’m not an exchanger or a borrower. I am no longer denying myself. I am a creator. And I feel that today I have taken a giant step toward understanding what that means. One thing I’ve realized today is that with all I’ve understood about creative abilities, I’ve barely begun to scratch the surface. And it’s a very deep ocean.
I am a creator. I’m responsible for every moment of my life, for every experience and every event. Because of my past, because of my background, because of my beliefs – for whatever reason – I’ve seen this creative ability as a burden, not as a gift. And yes, I’ve been incredibly foolish.
I feel like I’m waking up from a dream. And it’s not as if I now have to learn how to use these creative abilities; I’ve been doing that all along. Badly perhaps, but still creatively. And when I step back and look back over the past several years, I can see that even the help I’ve received has been in a way I would accept. I’ve set the parameters for all of this. This complete freedom – to be an idiot, to be restrictive, to turn away from and refuse the help that was offered – all of it has been my parameters. Now that is complete freedom. That’s what I wanted. I’ve also had the ability, in every moment, to allow more, to open up to help, to let myself be the infinite being that I am. And the most important thing in all of this, so far as I can see, is two-fold. On one side, from my conscious mind/ ego perspective is that I never gave up. I always held myself to following through, to believing in myself, even in spite of contrary evidence. I kept questioning, kept searching, kept asking and kept listening. It’s been a lot of years since I left the government, since those first days when I opened those heavy dungeon doors into my past. It’s been about some years too since I first read ‘The God of Jane’ and got back into Seth again. And here I am. I feel like I’ve walked through a long, dark tunnel and finally emerged onto a vast, open plain of infinite potential. Where do I go from here? Wherever I want to. I’m creating every moment of my life.
Here’s a quote from the Seth stuff I posted yesterday that fits in here perfectly. A good reminder:
“Even when you lost sight – as you knew you would – of those deep [inner] connections, they would continue to operate until, in its own way, man’s consciousness could rediscover the knowledge and put it to use – deliberately and willfully, thereby bringing that consciousness to flower. In your terms this would represent a great leap, for the egotistically aware individual would fully comprehend unconscious knowledge and act on his own, out of choice. He would become a conscious co-creator. Obviously, this has not as yet occurred.” ~ The “Unknown” Reality, Vol. 1, session 688.
I’m learning that ‘I’ means more than my conscious self and that all of ‘me’ is Source. Infinity has no divisions. I’m proud of myself and all that I’ve accomplished. I’m looking forward to a life created in joy. I am so powerful that I’m happy to accept and work with a power that has no limits. I’m selfish enough to be happy, first and foremost. I feel a little like Oversoul 7 at the end of book 2, right after his teacher yells at him!
I am a powerful being. I am a creator, becoming a more conscious creator every day. I’m doing this for me. Others are welcome to learn for themselves from my example, just as I take in the teachings and learning of others, but I’m going to give them the same freedom I’ve given myself – freedom to succeed, freedom to fail, and most of all, freedom to choose. It may sound like a rather aloof stance, but I believe it’s more loving than anything else, coming from a place of inner strength. As for me, I choose a life where I don’t waste one more day, one more second experiencing anything I don’t want. Funny, as I wrote that I thought that in (my view of) this society, people have a harder time accepting someone for whom everything goes right than they do someone for whom everything goes wrong… Definitely time to change that view!
A couple of Abraham quotes to round things out…
Those that we see who are living long lives don’t do so without powerful intent that keeps drawing. In other words, what continues the motion forward itself is the continuing setting forth of the new intent that draws life through. In fact, intending for long life assures that you must be leading the parade; people don’t start diminishing their life until they stop leading and start falling back into the ranks of the parade, trying to do what others are leading them to do. ~ Abraham-Hicks
If you’re not selfish enough to want to feel good, then you can’t connect with the energy that is your Source which does always feel good. ~ Abraham-Hicks
December 4, 2008
An Abraham quote to get started:
Any time you have physical discomfort of any kind, whether you call it emotional, or physical pain within your body, it always, always means the same thing: “I have a desire that is summoning Energy, but I have a belief that is not allowing so I’ve created resistance in my body.” The solution, every single time, to the releasing of discomfort, or pain — is the relaxation and the reaching for the feeling of relief. ~ Abraham- Hicks
Well, it’s Thursday and I’ve come downtown for the talk at the Bohemian. At the moment I’m at the Café Coffee, across from the library. When I arrived there was a pair of mallards at the door. “Customers?” I asked as I stepped inside. They must be used to handouts – hopefully lettuce and tomatoes and not pastries.
I have a couple of thoughts to record here. Actually, before I get to that I want to add that I ordered a large Americano and a biscotti. I think it’s the best biscotti I’ve had, ever, and their idea of a large Americano is a double shot of expresso served in a glass beer stein; probably the biggest cup of coffee I’ve ever had. They put the water in first then infuse the expresso on top. They have this fancy electronic machine that grinds the beans then pours out the shot. Love the technique!
Okay, on with the show… Just after I got into bed last night I remembered a part of a Seth quote about not expecting obstacles but growing with a wild, creative, aggressive abandon. Or something like that. Let me find it. Okay, here’s the quote:
“The state of grace is a condition in which all growth is effortless, a transparent, joyful acquiescence that is a ground requirement of all existence. Your own body grows naturally and easily from its time of birth, not expecting resistance but taking its miraculous unfolding for granted; using all of itself with great, gracious, creatively aggressive abandon.” ~ The Nature of Personal Reality, session 636.
It’s one of my favourites, so I’d do to remember it! Anyway, it got me thinking about the path I’m on, and how many obstacles I’ve expected and put in my own path, simply because I thought they were necessary. I don’t know if I’ve added this to my notes or not, but I was thinking about my tendency to overcomplicate things and it came to me that since I believed I was only valued for my intellect, then I had to put it to good and constant use. Only by doing so could I fulfill my idea that I had value.
Okay, now tying those two together, I came to what I’ve always wanted, which is to use my intellect in a very different way than I have been. Because the way I have been using my intellect has been to consider options, if/then scenarios, contingencies, etc. I’ve invested a lot of time and energy dealing with problems I’ve believed existed, and therefore created for myself. By recognizing that there are no obstacles that aren’t self-created (double negative… so what!), I can choose not to engage in obstacles at all. And that leaves me with the freedom, time and energy to engage my mind in other pursuits – much more wild, creative, aggressive pursuits, as it were. I’m still finding old ideas that I once held to wholeheartedly coming to the surface, things like ‘Religion means nothing to a starving man.’ That’s probably true, but I don’t need to be a starving man. I am a creator, expressing myself out into many areas of experience, including this reality. Just think of all I can turn my attention to, once I decide there’s nothing I have to deal with first. It’s exciting, and I’ve been finding myself excited more and more.
There are a lot of subtle changes as well. By seeing intention as action, I’m less concerned about not taking action toward my goals, because I am. By seeing myself as the creator of my experiences, I don’t need to worry about what I’m encountering in my life. My ideas of what life is are changing. I’m more willing to follow my own ideas and less interested in whether or not they fit with anyone else’s patterns. I’ve become more aware of how much I compared myself to others, seeing to know how I was different or similar and by how much. I’m satisfying myself, and in being satisfied, allowing others to be satisfied with themselves as well.
And that brings me to another idea that came to me, especially with regard to not creating obstacles. What I’m talking about is ‘permission’. Growing up as I did, with such strict controls on my life, what was allowed or not allowed was a big deal and getting permission for something was paramount. As I began looking at my relationships with my self, I transposed those same ideas onto the various aspects of my self. Not only did I expect difficulties, but I was also looking for permission from myself to do, well, everything. Interesting to look back ten or twenty years and see who I used to be. But as I recognize that “I” am Source energy and not just a product of a creation of something more powerful than I am, then permission becomes irrelevant. Choice is the only parameter.
Here’s a Seth quote I uncovered today:
“… The soul is open-ended, therefore. It is not a closed spiritual or psychic system. I have tried to show you that the soul is not a separate, apart-from-you thing. It is no more divorced from you than-capital-God is.
“There is no need to create a separate god who exists outside of your universe and separate from it, nor is there any need to think of a soul as some distant entity. God, or All That Is, is intimately a part of you. ‘His’ energy forms your identity, and your soul is a part of you in the same manner.
“My own reincarnational personalities, probable selves, and even Seth Two exist within me now, as I exist within them. In your terms, Seth Two is more advanced. In your terms, he is more alien, since he cannot relate to your physical existence as well as I do because of my background in it.
“Still, my experience enriches Seth Two, and his experiences enrich me to the extent that I am able to perceive and translate them for my own use. In the same way, Ruburt’s [Jane’s] personality is expanded through relationship with me, and I also gain through the experience, as even the best of teachers learns from each dimension of activity.
“In larger terms, my soul includes my reincarnational personalities, Seth Two, and probable selves. I am as aware of my probable selves, incidentally, as I am of my reincarnational existences. Your concept of the soul is simply so limited. I am not really speaking in terms of group souls, though this interpretation can also be made.
“Each ‘part’ of the soul contains the whole – a concept I am sure will startle you. As you become more aware of your own subjective reality you will therefore, become familiar with greater portions of your own soul. When you think of the soul as a closed system you perceive it as such, and close off from yourself the knowledge of its greater creativity and characteristics.
“Seth Two does represent what I will become, to some extent, and in your terms, yet when I become what he is he will be something different. In the same terms now, only, Ruburt [Jane] may become what I am, but then I will be something far different.
“Each of you are involved in the same kind of relationships, whether or not you are aware of them. Though it seems to you that reincarnational existences involve past and future events, they are existences parallel or adjacent to your own present life and consciousness. Other aspects of your greater identity exist, relatively speaking, about or around these.” ~ Seth Speaks, session 589.
I’m still in awe, not only of the complexity of what I am discovering about myself to be, but also of the true power of choice. Actually, I was thinking about that Buddhist saying ‘There are no rights or wrongs, only consequences’ and I wondered if maybe there was a mistranslation somewhere, with the real quote being ‘There are no rights or wrongs, only choices’. If not, I’ll create a new expression instead.
The next related idea, tying into permission and power, is the belief I had that other people should provide for me things like money, food, shelter, etc. because it freed me to focus on other things. That’s not a bad idea in and of itself, but coupled with that idea was that I then became dependent on that person or persons to provide for me. Couple that with the surrounding ideas of permission, power over, etc and it added up to an untenable situation and also an unnecessary one. Especially when it conflicts so directly with my ideas of infinity. Because being a creator means I’ve created every aspect of my life as I want it to be or expect it to be. Nothing is a big deal and everything comes easily. Why is it so surprising to me that the natural way of being should be so simple and yet so complex? An elegant simplicity; that’s a much better way of putting it.
December 5, 2008
Today’s Abraham quote to get us started…
Say yes to whatever it is. Because if you say yes to it and then you get in the middle of it, and you say, “Uh oh, this isn’t really turning out the way I wanted it to,” then out of that is born another desire. And as you say yes to that, then it turns out. And you say, “Well, it’s still not quite right.” So you have another desire… Until eventually you get it exactly right. You cannot get it wrong. No creation is ever complete. Just do it. ~ Abraham-Hicks
Well, an interesting day today; I’ve had several thoughts running through my head. One is from Seth’s quote, “The unconscious accepts the orders given to it by the conscious mind.” I’ve read that before, argued with it, come to accept it, but I was thinking about it last night and it has a very simple but profound message for me – that the conscious mind not only gives orders to the unconscious self, but that the conscious mind is capable of giving orders to the unconscious self. It seems that almost everyone picks on the conscious mind/ ego as being the black sheep of the family – the one who is less, the one who knows less, the smallest, weakest part of the Self. Now, not everybody suggests this; Abraham is a notable exception. And some of the CC writings say that the conscious mind is capable of knowing everything that is known by the inner self. But basically people seem to feel that the conscious mind/ ego needs to be done away with, bypassed, surpassed, etc. Granted, this has to be based on my own expectation for it to apply to me. I first heard of this back in the 70s probably, and while I eventually disagreed with and fought against the idea, I never completely refuted it. I’ll do so now. It was only very recently that I recognized my conscious mind/ ego as Source energy – as the same Source energy that comprises everything.
Now, of course, in recognizing that my conscious mind/ ego is not some evil deviant separate from the rest of my Self – and really, how could it be (but beliefs don’t question) – then I now have a place to honour and acknowledge ‘me’ as being on the leading edge of creativity, as Abraham says. That’s a very different place to be. My conscious mind/ ego, by believing in my own undesirability, has been abdicating the responsibility for making choices about my existence in this reality – the very role I came here to express. I’m moving forward now with a new sense of purpose.
I went looking for an Abraham quote about ‘leading edge creators’, and came across this very long one. I’m going to add it in because I think it’s worth reading again.
“Good morning. We are extremely pleased that you are here. It is good to come together for the purpose of co-creating, do you agree? You are knowing what you are wanting? It changes … eternally evolving. You are enjoying the evolution of your desire? You like that feeling of a fresh new awareness, a new desire coming into your consciousness? That feeling of adventure and wonder, delight with a new idea? Yes? Not so much?
If the new idea or desire breathes life into you, then we suspect that you have reconnected with your inner knowing. But if the new desire tortures you a little, antagonizes you, if when you have a desire that isn’t fulfilled you feel uncomfortable in its not-yet manifestation, then you still have not remembered that you are leading-edge creators and that you will never get it done, that there will always be a fresh new desire. When you realize that you are leading-edge creators and that the new desire that is born within you is literally what summons life to you, then you no longer feel frustration about what is not yet manifested. Instead you feel appreciation for the life-giving desire that still summons through you.
But we understand how when you have not consciously addressed the subject of resistance within your own vibration how new desires could sometimes not feel so good. Because when you really want something and you cannot for the life of you figure out how to bring it about, if you’ve got something that is plaguing you, something that you’d dearly love to get rid of and just can’t seem to rid yourself of, we understand how you might be out of balance with the idea of desire, so much so that you might even begin to condemn it, begin to say that desire is inappropriate – which is odd since the entire Universe is based upon this attraction-based effect where desire is born and it has the summoning capability that literally summon life force forward which keeps us all moving forward. It is so much more comfortable when you get in synch with the laws of the Universe. It doesn’t work too well when you jump off the cliff determined to defy gravity, and it doesn’t work too well when you go against the stream, or flow, of Source.
That’s what resistance is. Resistance is not going with the flow of your own well-being. Most clear statement we’ve ever made. Resistance is not going with the flow of your own natural wellbeing. Well-being flows, and when you are in alignment with it you feel wonderful. And when you are not in alignment with it, you don’t feel so good. So anger is you not going with the flow of wellbeing. Frustration is you not going with the flow of well-being. Fear is you not going with the flow of well-being.
So you say “How can I stand in this condition, knowing what I know and observing what I observe, and not feel these negative emotions?” And we say you have to practice. You have to decide that *you’re* going to be in charge of how you vibrate, *you’re* going to be in charge of how you feel. You’re not going to be buffeted about like a cork on a raging sea. You’re going to practice your vibration so that *you* can determine how you vibrate, how you flow, how you attract.
Through time, as you’ve been interacting with one another, as you’ve been responding to the circumstances that surround you, you have developed some vibrational patterns. And many of them serve you. Many of your vibrational patterns are vibrational patterns of positive expectation. We look at those of you who are in this environment and we notice how magnificently you expect.
Your standard of living is superb. You expect life to go well, to a certain extent. And what we’re wanting to assist you in doing is expecting it to go well in all regards. We want you to get so good at thinking thoughts deliberately, at setting your own tone, that *you* get to decide what your dominant vibration is about the subjects that are important to you, rather than having let something when you were three set the tone and you just keep doing it or something that mass consciousness is thinking about set the tone. We want you to get so good at choosing what your dominant vibration is that under all conditions you offer it.
That’s a key word that we are offering you here – dominant vibration – because you all have dominant vibrations relative to major subjects in your experience, and some of your dominant vibrations are serving you and some of your dominant vibrations are not serving you.
For example, when you think about the subject of dollars or financial abundance, do you feel adventurous and eager and unlimited or do you feel worried and uncertain and limited? You know! Some of you may say ‘well I feel some of all of that’ and we say yes, you do, but you know which is dominant. You can tell which way that leans. You know.
When you think about your major relationship, the most significant relationship, the one that you think about the most or the one you interact with the most, does that relationship feel like fun and life-giving, or does it feel like struggle and hard work. You know.
When you think about your physical body, does it feel flexible and strong, and sure-footed, or do you feel tentative and uncertain. You know.
Relative to every subject that you ponder, and especially those major subjects, you have little by little by little by little by little developed vibrational patterns – you could call them ‘beliefs’ – we don’t want to give them too much weight – habits of thought that you keep thinking. And the reason that you keep thinking them is because you haven’t decided to think otherwise and so the thought that you think you think which attracts to it so you think it some more which attracts to it so you think it some more which attracts to it so you think it some more.
IOW, when you have an expectation, you’ve got a dominant thought going on and LOA is going to deliver that to you again and again and again.
And you say “The reason that I believe this is because it is true!”
And we say the reason that you believe it is because you’ve practiced the thought, because all that a belief is, is a thought that you keep practicing.
And you say “But the reason I believe it is because it is true!”
And we say “And why is it true?” It is because you think it. It is because somewhere you got the thought, you held the thought, you let it become dominant in your vibration, LOA responded to that vibration and made it evidential in your experience.
And so you say, “It’s true!”
And what we are wanting you to come to realize is you can make well-being “true”. Or you can make not-well-being true. Cancer is “true”. It’s just not usually wanted. Violence is “true”; it’s just not usually wanted.
And we want you to begin to realize that “facing the facts” because they are “true” only perpetuates the “truth” you would not choose for yourself.
So when you begin to think about the dominant thoughts that you have, and more importantly, you begin to think about *choosing* thoughts that you want to make dominant, we have a process for you that will work if you will work it. And we call it “the process of Virtual Reality”. You’ve played this game under other titles. We’ve called it “creative visualization”. We’ve called it “using your imagination”.
Virtual Reality is a game where, like a director of a movie, you set the scene – you know what you want your audience to feel, and so you set them up for it.
You make it winter or you make it summer. You put it in the mountains or you put it on the ocean or you put it on the beach. You put it outdoors or you put it indoors. You make it daytime. You make it nighttime. IOW, you set the scene. It has one intent only, and that is the intent of your practicing a vibration with the singular purpose of making it a dominant vibration.
Sometimes people will use visualization to try to fix something that is broken.
And we want you to use Virtual Reality for one reason only – to make the vibration that *you* choose dominant. Let’s say that your nation is really worried about something, and it’s hard for you not to give it thought because when you turn on the television it is there, you hear others talking about it, your teachers are talking about it in the classrooms of your children, people are having discussions about it all around you. But when you think about it, you know its not a thought that you want to make dominant within you because you feel fear when it crosses your mind, or anger, or frustration, or worry. So you say “OK. I will choose another thought and make it dominant.” The feeling is I need to deactivate the thought that already *is* dominant.
But the trouble with that is when you decide that you’re going to deactivate a thought, you don’t deactivate it, you activate it. When you say, “I’m not going to think about that”, you’re thinking about that which you’re not going to think about. Even when you say “I don’t want to be sick, I’m going to think about wellness”, when you approach the subject of your physical body when your dominant thought about it has been sickness, even though you try to do a Virtual Reality about wellness, you usually activate the thought of illness because that’s the dominant thought relative to that subject. You see how it works?
So there’s a temptation when you apply these processes to say “Oh Abraham is giving me a process where I can fix this thing that’s broken”, and all it does is activate the thing that’s broken. So, without meaning to, you just practice making the dominant thought that isn’t serving you remains dominant.
This process of Virtual Reality will change that for you if you will understand this one very important thing. The process of Virtual Reality is where you practice your dominant thought. It’s where you practice the thought that you want to be dominant until it is dominant. Virtual Reality is the place where you practice the thought that you want to be dominant and make it dominant. Virtual Reality is the place where you practice the thought that you want to be dominant and you make it dominant. And the reason that we’re repeating this into the ridiculous is because at first you’re not going to want to do that.
Even Esther as she’s been practicing this for a few weeks now finds herself sometimes right in the middle of a delicious Virtual Reality and all of a sudden she realizes she’s trying to reform someone, either herself or someone else.
IOW, she’ll be going along swimmingly doing very, very well and then she’ll stumble into something and without even meaning to she’ll active something that is broken so to speak.
So, Virtual Reality really works best if it’s short. Get in, feel good, and get out.
Get in, feel good, and get out. So, you set the scene. What time of year is it? What time of day is it? Where is it, outside, inside? You get to choose.
There is no right and wrong in that. What you’re reaching for are good-feeling moments. You know those moments when your heart is just singing so strong and you just think, “I wish I could stay here forever!”? Does that usually happen to you when you’re outdoors or indoors? If it’s more often outdoors, then pick a scene that’s outside. If it’s more often indoors, then pick a scene that’s indoors. Esther, quite often in her Virtual Reality, she’s walking into a new place that is very beautiful and often it’s indoors. Sometimes she finds herself discovering a magnificent vista, and that moment of exhilaration is there. That’s what you’re reaching for.
So you set the place and the time of year and the time of day, and then you talk to yourself about how it smells and looks and feels. You’re sort of bringing yourself along little by little into this higher, higher, better, better, good, good, feeling place. And then you decide who else is with you. Sometimes, in the beginning, it’s better to be alone, but not always. You get to decide that. Who else is there? And what’s their mood? And, of course, you get to choose it so don’t bring someone who’s in a bad mood and then work him or her into a good mood.
Bring good mood people. And then exchange a few words – and off you go.
And what will happen is, as you do this for 30 seconds, you set a tone in your vibration. Does it immediately become your dominant tone or your dominant vibration? No. But it begins to dilute what is. So then you do it again and you do it again and you do it again and you do it again, and you *don’t* do it because there’s something broken that you want to fix because if you do it because there’s something broken that you want to fix, you just practice the one that’s already dominant. This is *only* to feel good, *only* to feel good. And with a few weeks of dabbling at this, you will readjust what is dominant within your vibration.
You see, the creative process is three steps.
The first step is you have to identify what is wanted and you can’t help but do that. Preferences are born within you all day every day. Contrast helps you to conclude. When you know what you don’t want, what you do want shoots out of you like a rocket. Whenever you know what you do not want, clarity about what you do want comes forth in very vivid terms. So, Step 1 is happening all over the place.
Step 2’s not your work. Source Energy will answer. Step 2 is the answering of what is being asked and that is not your work.
Step 3 is your work. You *must* be in the receiving mode, you *must* be a vibrational match, you *must* be vibrationally equivalent, you must *not* be vibrationally different, you must *not* be vibrationally resistant, you *must* be vibrationally harmonious with that which you are asking for. That’s what “being in the receiving mode” is. You’ve got to line up with your own desire.
So, when you realize that Step 1 and Step 3 are not the same step, and you realize that you can’t help but offer Step 1 – it’s happening all over the place – then we think it would be a good idea for *you* to make your dominant priority be being in Step 3, which means nothing is more important to you that to be in the receiving mode of well-being. And that’s where this Virtual Reality comes in. It will help you train *you* back into vibrational harmony with allowing the well-being that is natural to you.
You see a confusing point that so many human friends have is that there is this source of bad and this source of good and that I’ve got to really focus hard upon everything that I want and I have to keep talking about what I want and if I want something that I don’t have I have to be focused upon it really, really, really, really steadily in order to bring it about. IOW, I’ve got to set a goal and I’ve got to keep fixated on that goal or I won’t bring it about. And that’s just not true. You launched those goals. Source Energy is answering those goals or those desires, and what you’ve got to do is just be in a place where you’re not is the way, where you’re not vibrationally in the way. You hear in your physical environment “Let go and let God”. And what they are talking about is relaxing that resistance and allowing the well-being that is natural to flow into your experience. And so this Virtual Reality game is a really good game to help you deliberately change your vibration.
Now, do you need to do something like a Virtual Reality game in order to do that? No. You could get into modes of appreciation. You could be someone who is always looking for positive aspects. IOW, there are lots of tools that we and others have offered that help you become a vibrational match to well-being, that allow the well-being flow into your experience.
We’ve just noticed that so many of you have these things that you really, really, really, really, really want and you can’t figure out why you’re not getting them.
And we want you to know that it only can be that you are offering a vibration that is different from what you’re asking for. And the reason that that must be happening is that at an unconscious level you’ve got some patterns of thought going on that you don’t even know you’ve got going on. And so by deliberately offering thought, two things will happen. It will get easier for you to discover the thoughts that *allow* what you want and you will be *more* aware of when you are doing opposite.
The other day Esther said to Jerry “You know, what I’m worried about is….”, and Jerry said, “That’s a whopper of a Virtual Reality!” Because when you say, “You know, I really worry about something”, think about it. You’ve set the scene, you’ve identified your mood, you’ve decided who else will be there, and you’ve exchanged words…. IOW, you’re practicing a Virtual Reality that is not serving you every time you say, “I worry about this”.
Or “I remember”. When you remember you’re doing a Virtual Reality because you are reactivating everything that happened in that memory and making it a vibrational part of now. So what *are* you remembering? The thing about trying to change memories or trying to sift through memories is that they are what they are, and when you tap back into one of them it activates! IOW, when you think about some of those memories, your mood comes over you all at once, doesn’t it?
Have you ever had something unpleasant happen while a particular song was playing? And now if you ever hear that song, you almost without knowing it immediately go back to that mood that you felt there. Fragrances do that to you too. There are a lot of different things that happen in your day to day experience that activate vibrations within you that do not serve you. Well, no longer are you a ‘victim’ to the circumstances or to what somebody else can activate around you, because now you have a tool where you can practice activating vibrations that serve you and with thirty days of practicing activating vibrations, you will be *free* of all vibrations that have not been serving you. It is our absolute promise to you.
So we’re not going to deactivate anything. Why? Because it is not possible.
Because when you look at that thing that you want to deactivate, it activates.
Instead we’re going to practice activating on purpose. And when you activate vibrations on purpose, you change your point of attraction. And when you change your point of attraction, you change what happens to you. So the reason that this is a very easy, comfortable, joyful, really good process to begin getting good at is because as you practice the Virtual Reality, you win, win, win, win, win, because you feel good while you’re doing it, your vibration shifts which means your point of attraction shifts, which means the things that start coming to you change which is fun as they come, and it gets easier and easier and easier, because as you practice something that feels good more good things come and before you know it now you can practice a little and observe a lot and practice a little and observe a lot. You find yourself just saying things like “Ooh, that’s beautiful” and “Isn’t this fun” and “Wasn’t that a nice comment” and “Don’t you just love this” and “Don’t I have a good life” and “Aren’t I doing good” and “Aren’t we having a glorious time” and “Isn’t this a wonderful thing”. IOW, it just gets better and better and better and better and better.
And easier and easier and easier and easier and easier.” ~ Abraham-Hicks, May 28, 2002
Okay, I’m back. Related to the previous topic is a recognition that I used to believe I had to learn how I create my reality before I could apply those ideas to my life. This idea is somewhat akin to being in school and learning how to do things before going out into the world to do them for real. However, life isn’t like that. Life is quite literally ‘on the job training’. One can’t decide not to breathe until one has learned how to breathe more effectively. And yet, for the past number of years, some more and some less, that’s what I’ve been doing. Like a monk living behind stone walls, I’ve more or less retreated from the world, wanting to learn the ins and outs of reality creation before bursting back onto the world’s stage. Still, even in retreat I’ve been creating my reality and while it may sound more pat to say that I’ve been doing it badly, the truth is that I’ve created my reality perfectly. The only thing I’ve been doing badly is making bad choices. The reality creation has been flawless!
So, next steps? I accept my creative power. I am a creator. I create a reality where money comes to me, from me, in significant amounts and on a regular basis. I can consider it interest on my investments in myself, untouched by the world’s markets. Coupled with accepting my infinity and my creative power, I accept that I live in a universe where positive, expansive experiences are ‘normal’ for me, and negative, limiting experiences tell me there’s something I need to release.
My body is completely healthy, from the top of my head to the tips of my toes. Marcia and I are ‘retired’ in a way, although we both have various interests, individually and together. We have more money than we could ever use; we keep some and gift some. People gift to us also, not to fill a need, but because we all enjoy the feeling of ‘giving’. We have our life together, our ‘things’ and our family. Life is good.
One final note before I leave the Starbucks. When I arrived at the comfy chairs there was a valise left behind. When the owner arrived finally to claim it, I invited her to sit with me. She read and I wrote; quite a change from my experience at the library a few weeks back.
So, I’ve just finished typing in the past two days’ worth of notes, and I have a couple of other items to add. The first is from a Seth quote that I don’t seem to have a copy of, relating to the magical approach and the rational approach working together. I’ve always had a hard time with that quote because of the wording, but I realized two things about that tonight. The first is that the magical approach and the rational approach can work together in my life. The second was that the quote come from the Seth books, and so the wording may not ‘all’ apply to me. I’m a little unsure about that one, since I’m creating the text I see. Maybe it’s best if I just work with the part of a quote that works best for me, and hold the rest until later.
The second thought that came to me on the walk home is something I’ve thought about off and on over the years. Let’s say I’ve received a windfall and I want to give some of it to family, for example. I’ve always had a difficult time deciding if I should do that or not, how much, etc. At one point do I interfere with someone else’s life? That thought has troubled me over the years, but the answer that came today was obvious. Follow my impulses. Relax, let go, and let Spirit carry me. Simple.
And my last note for tonight is from the book ‘The daVinci Code’. I just finished reading it again. I first read it when it came out, and I’ve seen the movie a few times, but there are so many subtle nuances and so many references in the book that I had forgotten. Of course much of the book is about the sacred feminine, and that’s no news to me, but there were also references in the book to the ceremony of Hieros Gamos, or Sacred Marriage ritual. It’s best described as a ceremony celebrating a sexual union between god and goddess. Actually, the word “orgy” comes from the Greek word “orgia” meaning “secret worship” and most secret worship involved sacred sex. In Dan Brown’s book he described how orgasm connected the male (and presumably female) to the Divine for even a few seconds, and that made such perfect sense to me. It’s given me an entirely new understanding of my own views toward sex, which has always been as something sacrosanct. More than that, though, the idea of connection to the divine really struck a chord with me because it got me thinking about everything from advertising, fashion to the porn industry, and how ‘sex sells’. True, it does, but it does because we’ve forgotten our connections achieved with such a sacred union and in forgetting, we’re like moths to a flame, circling around and around the light…
“Ideas of good, better, best can lead you astray, for example. You are learning to be as completely as possible. In one way you are learning to create yourselves. In so doing during the reincarnational cycle, you are focusing your main abilities in physical life, developing human qualities and characteristics, opening new dimensions of activity. This does not mean that good does not exist, or that in your terms you do not ‘progress,’ but your concepts of good and progression are extremely distorted.” ~ Seth Speaks, session 541.
December 7, 2008
Well, I’ve made myself a few notes here, so I’d best type them out while I can still remember what they’re about!
Here are two Abraham quotes that tie in with what I’ve been writing about:
“Your life is right now! It’s not later! It’s not in that time of retirement. It’s not when the lover gets here. It’s not when you’ve moved into the new house. It’s not when you get the better job. Your life is right now. It will always be right now. You might as well decide to start enjoying your life right now, because it’s not ever going to get better than right now–until it gets better right now!” ~ Abraham- Hicks
“When you find vibrational alignment with You, you personally thrive. You feel good; you look good; you have stamina; you have energy; you have balance; you have clarity; you have wit; you have abundance of all things that you consider to be good. You thrive in all ways when you come into Energy Balance with You. Vibrational Relativity—that’s what it’s all about.” ~ Abraham-Hicks
Okay, then. Since my conscious mind is the director of my experience in my reality, by opening up my conscious mind and allowing more flow and more expansion and removing blocks and really expanding my Self, I’m also giving permission to the other aspects of my self, responsible for physical reality creation, to share in this joy and expansion. I hear shouts of joy all over the place!
Thinking about Hieros Gamos and the ‘shudders’ I get sometimes. I’ve written before that they feel ‘orgasmic’ in nature, and they only happen when I’m feeling really strongly connected. Perhaps a peek at my own infinity?
A thought just came to mind… I would like those aspects of my self responsible for reality creation to consider creating any experience in my life that would make me happy and only such experiences. I have no interest in experiencing anything else.
I have more than enough. And having more than enough, I am open to receiving more. And in receiving more, I will have more than enough. Such a wonderful cycle of creation!
A couple of other thoughts… One is I was thinking about what I wrote about the river and being swept along in the current, or walking around a cruise ship making its voyage, and not being able to influence either one very much. What came to me today is that those concepts still deal in separation – me vs. the stream or whatever, with the stream being greater than I am. What I’m reaching for is an understanding of me as a part of the stream, not simply being carried by it. As I’ve said, infinity knows no boundaries and has no separations. Therefore, I can think of the stream as being like a vehicle for me, taking me to where I want to go.
Similarly, I’ve been looking at the wonderful things that have been happening in my life and thinking of them as ‘driftwood’, place markers showing me that I’m on the right path and I just have to ‘do’ more – open more, write more, research more, grow more or whatever to get to where I want to be. What came to me today is that these markers aren’t guideposts showing me where I have yet to go. These are signs letting me know I’ve arrived. Yes I have more to learn, more to open up to, more to grow. But it’s more important for me right now to stop for a moment and recognize and acknowledge all that I have achieved, and to reap the benefits of that. I’ve been unwilling to stop and take in what I’ve asked to receive because I’ve been moving past it at the same time. Relax, let go, and let Spirit carry me.
And tied in with that is a thought that I woke up with this morning: Who am I without struggle? Struggle has defined so much of my life, and in many ways, my definition of myself begins and ends with what I have struggled to be, struggled to achieve, tried and succeeded or failed, etc. I’ve written about this before, but I’ve noticed that things I write about again are things to draw my attention to – choices I need to make, or choices I haven’t been happy with and need to change. So, who am I without struggle? I’m not going to answer that question here; I’m going to allow the answer to reveal itself in my life instead.
And finally, I was thinking today about my world, and recognizing that this world is my creation, then the world is what I/ we make it. And thinking about it from the perspective of giving up struggle means that, again, I can create an entirely different understanding of the world, a new completely new world in which to have my experience. That’s fascinating. As Seth said:
“It is not that your being exists in a lesser reality. It is that you have not learned to recognize the extent of the reality in which you do exist.” ~ Conversations with Seth II, Chapter 10.
“I would like each of my readers to be a practicing idealist, and, if you are then you will automatically be tolerant of the beliefs of others. You will not be unkind in the pursuit of your own ideals. You will look upon the world with a sane compassion, with some humor, and you will look for man’s basic good intent. You will find it. It has always been there. You will discover your own basic good intent, and see that it has always been behind all of your actions – even in those least fitted to the pursuit of your private ideals.
“The end does not justify the means. If you learn that lesson, then your good intent will allow you to act effectively and creatively in your private experience, and in your relationships with others. Your changed beliefs will affect the mental atmosphere of your nation and of the world.” ~ The Individual and the Nature of Mass Events, session 873.
December 8, 2008
Well, it’s been an interesting day. I took a walk down to Mission Creek today; there are the beginnings of ice along the creek but the water is still flowing strongly. Reminds me a little of Jackson Creek in Peterborough, and all of the time I had there… The forest was very quiet today – the only wildlife I saw was one Downy Woodpecker. That and a couple of dogs and a few people. After that I went over to the mall and sat and did some writing for a while. Before I left Chapters I went to the washroom in the back, and as I was passing by the camera books there was a woman there with a few books in her hand and a lost look on her face. She had purchased a Canon 450D, had taken it on vacation with her husband and had made some images that she and her friends were happy with, but she really doesn’t know much about photography. I recommended ‘The Moment it Clicks’ by Joe McNally as a good reference. We also talked for a while about .jpg vs. raw files, about histograms and ETTR, how the digital information is mostly held in the top half of the histogram and things like that. It was fun. I don’t have anyone I can talk with about photography and even in explaining those simple things, it was a great connection. Reminded me of Marcia’s adventure to the bookstore with ‘The Celestine Prophecy’. I provided the woman with a link to The Luminous Landscape and my e-mail address in case she has any questions. Maybe I’ll hear from her and maybe I won’t, but that’s up to her. Caught the bus back and got to sit up top in the front seat, for half the journey anyway.
Okay, here’s what I wrote today. Actually, before I get into that I want to add in something I wrote to Marcia today in response to a question she had asked:
Mike, how did you feel when you read this? :
“CHRIS ATTWOOD: I’m going to lead you a little bit on this point, and you can disagree if you’d like. One of the things that we say in The Passion Test is your passions are like breadcrumbs leading you on to fulfill your personal destiny, your life purpose or whatever you like. Is it possible that by going for the house or going for the Maserati that that’s the next step I need to take in order to get to the point of recognizing that that has limited meaning? Could it be taking me on, as you say, to the next stage of the evolution of my consciousness and my life?
SHORE SLOCUM: Absolutely! I’m so excited you said that. Maybe what you learned in going after the Maserati is what the real lesson was. It wasn’t the car itself. It was what you had to go through, what you had to elevate, the way you had to think, a person you met along the way, or you just needed to get it out of your system so you just went through it quicker.”
My thoughts on this have changed and expanded so many times in the past six years that even I’m not sure all of twists and turns I’ve taken. I’ll see if I can outline where I’m at now.
Actually, if I go back to when I found ‘The God of Jane’ and ‘The Individual and the Nature of Mass Events’ on Susie’s bookshelf, and that’s what got me back into Seth again. From the beginning I wanted two things. On the physical perspective I wanted things – a home, money, a vehicle, etc. and on the non-physical side I wanted spiritual growth. Those two things have combined over the years into One, really, and that’s where I’m at now. But even in the beginning the things I wanted were never for the ‘he who has the most toys when he dies wins’ perspective. That’s never been what it was about for me. Actually, in the beginning I wouldn’t even allow myself to think of things I wanted for myself; I could only think of things that would be of benefit to other people.
I didn’t want things for the sake of having things, but it seemed to me that if it was an infinite universe, then I should be able to have what I wanted, whatever it was. And with where I was at the time, I also wanted my inner self to bring me those things because my relationship with my inner self wasn’t on very solid ground at the time, and because I had this huge gap between what I saw as my inner self and what I saw as my conscious self. I was, then, quite literally two separate beings – me and Me so to speak.
We seem to live in a society where there are those who want the physical things and those who believe that wanting physical things makes one shallow, and that the real purpose in life is to want to help others, to be altruistic, etc. What I read in Chris’ quote above is that it’s okay to want the shallow physical things because once you get that out of your system then you can graduate to wanting the more non-tangible – non-physical things, to be of a ‘higher purpose’. I may be wrong in that, but that’s what it sounds like to me. Now Chris’ background is very eastern-based, Buddhism and the like, and that’s one of the tenets of Buddhism – to give up worldly belongings. Even in the Bible Christ supposedly said that it would be easier for a camel to pass through the eye of a needle than for a rich man to enter the kingdom of heaven.
To me, with where I’m at now, I don’t see a difference between wanting physical things and wanting non-physical things. I don’t think one is of a ‘higher’ and one of a ‘lower’ purpose. This is especially relevant when one considers that the whole self is living multiple lifetimes simultaneously, and in each lifetime there are different purposes. So in some lives people choose poverty, or illness or war, and in some lives people choose wealth, health, friendship, and peace.
To me, something that I’ve come to recently, the most important thing is to give up judgment of what I or anyone else wants. I read something last night, and I don’t remember the author, but she (I think it was a woman) said something that a rich person who was afraid of losing all of his or her money and a poor person shared the same poverty consciousness. A rich person, a truly rich person is someone who is comfortable with the wealth he or she has, whatever that entails. To me wealth takes many forms – I can have a wealth of money, a wealth of friendships, a wealth of peace, a wealth of health, a wealth of understanding, etc. And I don’t believe any one is more important than any other, but I do believe that true wealth includes all of them.
I remember, several years back, in one meditation I saw a bunch of kids in a playground, and one was money and one was health and one was friendship and one was synchronicity and one was playfulness and one was spontaneity and one was wisdom and one was… Anyway, all of the kids were playing together except for money, who was sitting alone. And I realized in that meditation that I had separated money from everything else in my life. During that meditation I got the other kids to go over and invite money into their circle and by the end they were all playing together. More than that, they were all turning into each other. Money became wisdom and health became spontaneity and so on. And from that moment that’s what I wanted my life to be like – where money wasn’t something separated from the rest of my life, but an integral part of it, like every other aspect.
To me, money is energy, but in (my understanding of) this society, money is still treated as something separate from everything else. It’s still sitting alone in the playground. Everyone wants money to be around, but nobody wants money to be considered a part of their friendly group. Because of that I’ve recognized that to work within this society (as I understand it) I’m going to need money as a form of exchange because that’s what other people expect.
For me, what I’m most interested in is creation – transferring or translating energy into matter. There was a time where I believed that ‘I’ literally had to gather together the energy needed to perform this translation, and I also believed that I required intense focus to bring this into being. Focus, concentrate, etc. Keep in mind the sense of separation I felt between my conscious mind and the rest of my Self. If no other aspect of myself was going to do this for me, I was going to learn how to do it myself… so there! As I mentioned above, as I’ve traveled along this path of my life those two original intents have become one. I now see physical creation as a part of spiritual development. I am learning to be me, and also learning what that means. I’ve described myself (and others) as a fully aware, strong, powerful, multidimensional spiritual being. I’m learning what that means.
And so yes, I want certain things, but I want those things because I have an admiration for quality, for workmanship, for beauty in myriad forms. I need no justification for those things other than those are my choices. In having money I also want to be involved with helping other people, whether it be through voluntourism, through ethical, social and environmentally sound investments, through charitable donations, gifts to family or whatever. Giving makes me feel good, and I’m learning that receiving can feel good too. But again, those are things that interest me and I don’t separate one (physical) from the other (non-tangible).
As Abraham has said, it’s as easy to create a castle as a button. You just need to decide if you want a castle or a button. What I want is the ability to create – anything. It’s like having a huge ball of Play-Doh, and it doesn’t matter if you make it into a house, a car, a ball of healing energy for someone, a cruise ship, a well in an African village, or whatever.
That may be more than you wanted, but that’s where I’m at right now. I want to really ‘know’ and experience life as a conscious co-creator. If you’re given a piece of paper and a pencil and are instructed to draw anything, what does anyone draw? They draw things that interest them.
What are your thoughts?
Okay, now onto the day’s writings:
I’ve gone through quite a shift in feeling since I left the house, and I’m back to being excited. I’m excited a lot of the time now, and this is definitely a good thing. Been thinking today of my thoughts as specific instructions, orders to my unconscious as it were, and while it’s an interesting exercise to look back and see clearly how my thoughts and beliefs have formed my reality in the past, it’s more important to me now to simply acknowledge the truth of it and get on with using it. One thing that came to mind today was an old story about two offices. In one office were one person, one small desk, and one printer. When something came out of the printer the person stamped ‘Actuated’ on it and put it in the tray. In the next office, much larger, BTW, there was a whole group of people – all scurrying around – many desks, phones ringing, etc. Both offices represent one person and his or her connection to their unconscious. The first office represents a person who is aware of his or her power, one who gives an order to the unconscious and moves on. The second office is someone who questions his or her ability. It’s a good visual to remember.
I am a fully aware, strong, powerful multidimensional spiritual being, expressing myself as physical reality. That’s important to remember. I’m not expressing myself into physical reality, but as physical reality. I am my whole world. That adds a completely different level to the idea of creating my reality and the instructions I give to my unconscious. Not only do I have the power to influence my world, I am my world. That’s an ‘As Me’ stance from a Shore Slocum perspective. I’m acknowledging my own power and as I do I’m discovering that there is much more to acknowledge than I once could have imagined. And as I discover my own power, like a mirror, my reality become more than I had thought possible as well. Creation requires no precedent. This perspective also negates the premise that there are certain ways things have to be, certain ways the world has to work. I keep bumping into thoughts of criticisms in my head, words like ‘egomaniac’ and ‘full of himself’, etc. and as I do I realize several things. The first is that by surrendering judgement I have no further use for criticisms. By extension, and aware being finds no use for such terms either. They don’t apply to him or her, and s/he certainly wouldn’t find any use for them. And finally, such terms are only used by those who are still living in judgement and therefore afraid of their own Being. I’m not; I used to be, but I’m not.
And that got me thinking about action, and specifically the idea of action vs. effort. I’ve always seen them as being the same thing, and that’s created some conflict within me because I’ve been told to take action but that creation should be effortless. Hence the confusion. I remember back a few years when I thought all effort toward creation had to come directly from me, and ‘intention’ became a practice of focused effort. I still remember my meditations of focused intention where I was trying to create a winning lottery ticket for example. Specific focus, narrow beam, became my objective. Funny, as I wrote that I remembered a part of something from a channeling session: “To meditate as ye are being taught will close doors rather than open them. Rather let this be an opening in love.” Sounds a lot like “Relax, let go and let Spirit carry you.” Twenty years of the same message and I’m finally getting it. Something that came to me here is that all inspired action will be effortless. That’s a good measure to use.
Something that came to me last night with regard to being in the stream is that I’ve always visualized being in the flow as being like in a river, and going downstream meant following a specific channel wherever it went. That’s been the basis for the conflict. Last night it came to me to consider a flow of air instead. I like that much better. Seeing the ‘stream of Well-Being’ as Abraham calls it as a current of air makes a lot more sense to me. Air currents don’t follow specific channels, and they move in three dimensions. Since I as Source am the wind, I’m blowing myself toward where I want to be.
I keep coming back to Melody Lawson’s article of ‘Giving up All Hope’ and seeing that as being an article about claiming my own power. I’ve always been the source of everything in my life, but because I was unwilling to see and accept that, I’ve pushed it away and made it seem as thought it was coming from others. No more pretending, and in giving that up I acknowledge and accept myself as a conscious co-creator. I like it!!
While sitting here at Starbucks I can see things from all four of Shore Slocum’s perspectives:
- To me: I’ve been sitting here too long and someone is going to come by and ask me to leave.
- By me: I’ve paid for a coffee and so I have a right to be here.
- Through me: There is no conflict; everything is working out in perfect harmony and this is the right place for me in this moment.
- As me: I am the store, the table, the chair, the coffee, the pen, and the notebook…
And having written that, I’m done for now!
A little something to finish up:
“The inner ego …always identifies with its source-identity as a beloved, individualized portion of the universe. It is aware of the universal love that is its heritage.
“It is also aware of the infinite power and strength that composes the very fabric of its being. Through being made aware of these facts, the exterior ego can begin to feel a quicker sense of support and nourishment. The knowledge can let it relax, let go, so that it feels its life couched and safe, and know itself to be indeed a beloved child of the universe, both ancient and young at once, with an identity far beyond the annals of time.
“It is of great value, then, that each person remember this universal affiliation. Such a reminder can often allow the inner self to send needed messages of strength and love through various levels, appearing as inspiration, dreams, or simply bursts of feeling. The inner ego draws intent and continuous support from the universal consciousness, and the more the exterior ego keeps that fact in mind, the greater its own sense of stability, safety and self-esteem.” ~ The Way Toward Health, March 19, 1984.