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Welcome back. As with my last writings post, I’m going to dip into my ‘Future Me‘ archives. The following contains some great quotes from others that really made a difference for me…
November 24, 2008
Well, I stopped at Starbucks again this afternoon for a quick tea and a bagel on my way from the storage unit to head to some stores. I brought my bike over to the storage unit today – after cleaning off the construction dust from the new patio door, and paid the rent for another month while I was there.
I am a fully aware, strong, powerful, multidimensional spiritual being. This is my relationship with my world, even though I’ve done my best to deny it. I hate to use words like special or elite because I don’t think they apply, and besides, I’m no different than anyone else. I may happen to be more aware of my potential than some, but we’re working toward different goals. The Universe is big enough for all of us. It’s funny, as I open more into love and release judgement, my connections to things like my desires are shifting. It’s not that I’ve given up on them; rather it’s that I’ve become more sure of them and in becoming stronger within myself I’m becoming less possessive, less guarded about them.
This leads me into something else. I’ve been thinking about people I’ve had in my life who I never hear from but whom I send things to by e-mail and it seems sometimes that I’m the only one holding these relationships together. Going to the idea that people can only be with me if they want to be, maybe it’s time to let go of those people. If my friendship is important enough to them, they’ll find me. And if it isn’t, no great loss. I’m not cutting them off, just letting go.
Okay, as I was walking back home I had two thoughts. One was that we watched ‘Tin Cup’ last night, with Kevin Costner and Rene Russo. Not a great movie but funny in places, but there was a defining moment in the movie near the end where he was golfing at the US Open and decided to use a 3-wood to hit the ball over the water trap. The first three days of the tournament he tried it and the ball hit the water and he went around. On the fourth day he did the same thing, except he kept taking another shot and another shot and another shot, and on the very last shot he had, he whacked the ball over enough that it rolled down into the cup. He lost the tournament, but he made his shot. And the crowd went wild! And I feel exactly like that. Everyone else in the tournament took the short shot and went around, but he was determined. I KNOW there’s a different path for me. I don’t really care if anyone else notices or not, but I’m doing this for me. It’s my path. And I’m excited by it!
The other thing that came to me as I was walking back through the park was I was thinking that by doing away with judgments and mental entanglements, life gets easy. So why make it complicated? And the answer was there right away, although I’ve never thought of it before from that perspective. So, what was the answer? Intellect. When I was a kid, the one thing I was praised for was my intellect. I was smart, and I was good at it. As Seth said, we learn to think by thinking, and so being a good thinker has always been something I’ve been praised for. However, I’ve gone maybe a little too far with that, making my life more complicated than it needs to be just to satisfy my own conscious mind. Hmmm… It’s an intriguing idea, actually, because by relaxing into it, letting go and allowing Spirit to carry me, I release myself from those mental entanglements and judgments and my life becomes simpler… AND that leaves me free to think about other things instead, like what lies beyond this reality, what the nature of consciousness really is, and many other questions. I don’t have to surrender my intellect; rather, I can put it to much better use than I have been.
November 25, 2008
A little Seth to kick things off:
“Your spirit joined itself with flesh, and in flesh, to experience a world of incredible richness, to help create a dimension of reality of colors and of form. Your spirit was born in flesh to enrich a marvelous area of sense awareness, to feel energy made into corporeal form. You are here to use, enjoy, and express yourself through the body. You are here to aid in the great expansion of consciousness. You are not here to cry about the miseries of the human condition, but to change them when you find them not to your liking through the joy, strength and vitality that is within you; to create the spirit as faithfully and beautifully as you can in flesh.” ~ The Nature of Personal Reality, Session 615.
Okay, I’d like to get to bed a little earlier tonight (before 2:00 maybe!) but I have a few things to include here.
First is something I wrote a while back, which I stumbled upon recently: “How many times have I told myself this is who I will be, or this is who I would be if I was allowed or had the money or… rather than, this is who I AM?” Something good to remember.
Second, I wrote a one-word note to myself this morning: ‘dependence’. Something I wrote about yesterday was about refusing to accept things from others I couldn’t get for myself. I’ve been thinking about that from several different perspectives, and the best I can say is that I just have to love the person I used to be, the one who was so closed up he couldn’t even accept the simplest of gifts, not even from my own Self. I’m glad I’m not that person anymore, though.
The next note I have is something else that came to me today and has me really excited. It’s one of those things I’ve ‘known’, but sank in better today. Magic is spontaneous, takes no time and requires no precedent. Magic isn’t something I have to wait for. That’s a very powerful statement! It’s also a very good reminder. I remember back, not so long ago, when I used to imagine my desires and I planned out every moment, every possibility and every contingency. I also figured what would be required in terms of circumstances, believability, likelihood, etc. It was a lot of work, and completely unnecessary, but it was who I was at the time. I’m going to write it again. Magic is spontaneous, takes no time and requires no precedent. Magic isn’t something I have to wait for. I like it!
Tied in with that was another thought: Source is doing its part. My part is to allow it to happen. Actually, I had a little snippet of an imaginary conversation pop into my head, between me, living a magical life, and someone who doesn’t understand this stuff yet. “And what do you do?” she asked. “I try to remember how blessed I am.” I replied. I was thinking today that in my opinion I’ve already traveled down the road to self-awareness MUCH farther than I once thought possible, but coupled with that was the realization that I’ve really not even begun. It’s like ‘Star Trek II, the Wrath of Khan’, where the Federation people invested three months blasting a small antechamber out of the rock, and then their Genesis device created an entirely new subterranean world in three hours. I’ve invested a lot of years digging my own small antechamber, and I feel like I’m poised on the edge of detonating my own Genesis device so to speak. I’ve traveled farther along this road than I once thought possible, dreaming only of a potential that was beyond what I could imagine at the time. I’m still there, believing that my potential is more than I know it to be in this moment, but I feel more and more like I’m coming up through a funnel and I’m standing on the edge of where it expands out in all directions. The Seth quote above reminded me of another quote where Seth said that there are no accidents because if one allows for the possibility of even the slightest, most insignificant accidental occurrence, then one must also concede the idea that the entire universe is sheer randomness. There’s a section near the beginning of the CC writings that says:
“For without absolute freedom none of you could possibly change any of your circumstances. And the extent to which you learn discernment and choice to replace limitation and restriction, and the extent to which you understand the power of the self in face of all experience, there is no circumstance you cannot overcome. The foundation of your being is built on this model. And everything, every evidence to the contrary is in its simplest form, an opportunity to choose a new perspective.
The further you progress down this road, the more sustained joy you will experience, because sustained joy is the natural response to choices made out of freedom. So. You experience greater and greater periods of simple contentment. Less and less of your time is spent in the old patterns of pointless mental entanglement. This is because you have satisfactorily proven to yourselves that at the very best mental entanglement is a waste of time, and at the worst, it represents creative power ill used with unpleasant and sometimes dire results.”
If I decide that there is any limitation to my freedom, to the choices I can make or the power that is available to me, then I have to concede the idea that I have no power, no choices and no freedom whatsoever. And everything I know tells me that is false. Therefore I have absolute freedom to change any and every circumstance of my life. And I still share this planet with those who are making different choices, and that’s okay. They need not open themselves up to the infinite beings that they are, but I certainly need not close myself off from what I know myself to be. I am a fully aware, strong, powerful, multidimensional spiritual being. I imagine my life as I see it, and it is built out of my imaginings. I can relax, let go, and let Spirit carry me.
I’m going to close this out with a quote from Elias that I found on NWV today. This jumped out at me; especially the last couple of paragraphs.
“ELIAS: I will express to you one encouragement that may not seem to be an encouragement presently, but in actuality, it is a physical example that your planet, that your world, is actually shifting and that you can visibly see. The turmoil that you perceive in your world presently in actuality is not what it seems. It may be frightening to many individuals, that it appears that your foundations are somewhat crumbling, but in actuality, this is a sign of you ARE shifting. Many changes will occur in this shift, and they have begun. What you view to be bad or devastating economically is actually the birth pangs of a new foundation and a new order, for your old systems do not fit any longer in your new reality. This change is not occurring immediately, but it has begun.”
FEMALE: Elias, could we return to the financial scene? The plain old country, the values and our pocketbook and our financial standing? I know you’ve referred to the year 2075 everything will be…
FEMALE: But in the interim and presently, is there no guidance system? Are there some steps we can take to reassure ourselves?
ELIAS: Stop worrying! (Laughter)
RODNEY: When I was a little boy, my mom would give me a nickel at the end of every week. That was my allowance. That was the kind of allowance I was (inaudible).
ELIAS: And what will you do with your nickel when it no longer incorporates any value and no one is receiving it?
RODNEY: That would be terrible!
ELIAS: And why would it be terrible? Would it not offer you so much more freedom if you were not ruled by money?
RODNEY: Elias, I’m just trying to be funny, and you’re being so…
LYNDA: Damned serious! (Laughter with Elias) (Hubbub ensues again, taking comments or questions with it)
RODNEY: (Inaudible) …I almost can’t imagine.
ELIAS: I am quite aware, and this is what we are discussing, that you cannot imagine it, that you do not incorporate a concept, that this is not a direction that you can conceivably plan, that it is occurring but you cannot individually plan it. Therefore, it is a matter of allowing and flowing with rather than flowing against, and one of the flowing-withs rather than against is not to concern yourself and worry in relation to lack.
RODNEY: I’ve been practicing that all my life.
ELIAS: And it is a matter of continuing, but in a different manner now. For now it appears that there is a threat, but there actually is not. You perceive there is a threat, for it is a change; but it actually is not a threat. It is a movement into precisely what you want. You are generating precisely what you want, and you are terrified. (Laughter)”
Saturday, October 25, 2008
Session #2658 (Group/Brattleboro, Vermont)
“Memory and the Body Consciousness”
“The Key is Allowance and Comfort”
This is the part that jumped out at me (emphasis mine):
“ELIAS: I am quite aware, and this is what we are discussing, that you cannot imagine it, that you do not incorporate a concept, that this is not a direction that you can conceivably plan, that it is occurring but you cannot individually plan it. Therefore, it is a matter of allowing and flowing with rather than flowing against, and one of the flowing-withs rather than against is not to concern yourself and worry in relation to lack.
ELIAS: And it is a matter of continuing, but in a different manner now. For now it appears that there is a threat, but there actually is not. You perceive there is a threat, for it is a change; but it actually is not a threat. It is a movement into precisely what you want. You are generating precisely what you want, and you are terrified.”
P.S. A thought from Ernest Holmes (more or less) – God knows exactly what I want, and is providing it for me, right now. The answers to all of my questions are already known. Still, asking the questions expands what I am.
P.S. II, the sequel. Just before closing out the computer I opened the CC writings and was guided to this page:
“Getting the Hang of It
Now your natural inclination is to move with ease and grace, for now rather than struggling to find ease and grace amidst the obstacles, you move easily out of the obstacles and back into ease and grace. You will see the universe around you provide what you need, take care of the moment, even when you “forget.” (laugh) And we ask you a question. Have you noticed how the space, which was only recently filled with a mild agitation and boredom, has suddenly expanded to allow you to be in your creative ease? Do you see how your natural spontaneous order emerges effortlessly? This is your gift. The gift you have given yourselves. Trust it. And follow where it leads. For now you are in a space of knowing which is larger than any you have encountered so far. We encourage you to play along with it. To experiment. And try it out. We are quite certain that you would not trade this new understanding for a hundred million days of the old way. Your exploration is just beginning. Remind yourself of this often. And seek, expand, play with each moment.”
November 26, 2008
Well, today is our 73rd Monthaversary of being married!! Amazing stuff.
Okay, I walked over to Jim’s today and did some writing, but first I want to add in two clips from other sites. The first is from Rhonda Byrne:
“A Secret Scrolls message from Rhonda Byrne
Creator of The Secret
The greatest thief of human happiness and abundance is ungratefulness. Any lack in our lives – whether in money, health, or relationships – is simply the evidence of a lack of gratitude. If you focus on lack you are not being grateful, and that will bring more lack into your life. Yet the simple state of radiating gratitude summons everything to you.
No matter who you are or where you are, you can change your life with gratitude, but you must feel it with your whole heart and radiate it from every cell. Gratitude is not a mental exercise, and in fact, if you simply use your mind for gratitude it will have little or no power. True gratitude comes from your heart! You must think gratitude through your heart, speak gratitude through your heart, and feel it intensely in your heart.
Then practice gratitude relentlessly. As you practice gratitude you will attract more thoughts and feelings of gratitude. In a short time your entire being will be saturated with it, and you will experience a happiness that is beyond what you can imagine. This is what is ahead for you when you choose gratitude as your way of life. And if you can really live in this highest state of gratitude, you will never have to ask for anything. Everything you want will be given to you before you even ask, because gratitude is the magnetic substance that opens every single door in the Universe.
This Thursday is Thanksgiving in the United States. To celebrate Thanksgiving, I want to share an excerpt with you from The Secret Daily Teachings, which is being released in the US, Canada, the UK, and Australia on December 9th. This excerpt presents an easy way to start using gratitude and integrate it into your life by making every Thursday “Thank You Thursday.” As you “Thank your way through every Thursday” you will open the most powerful receiving channel within you.
From The Secret Daily Teachings – Thank You Thursday
- “Today is Thank You Thursday. Today and every Thursday is your day to say and feel “Thank you” in as many ways as you can.
- Write a list of all the people and events you want to give thanks for.
- Return thanks today to those who have done things for you.
- As you walk say “Thank you” in your mind with each step you take.
- As you drive, make each time you stop your cue to say “Thank you.”
- At various times in the day, think and feel “Thank you” inside you seven times in a row.
- Look for every opportunity to say “Thank you” to other people, and say it with so much meaning that the person looks right at you.
- Thank your way through every Thursday, and make “Thank you” your predominant thought, feeling, and words of the day.
“Thank you” – two words, inconceivable potential power, and all they need is you to put the power into them by expressing them.”
The second is the latest installment from Samantha Standish on her blog:
When I was working as a lawyer, my boss once said to me, “You are the most curious person I’ve ever known.” Ignoring the double entendre for a moment, he was referring to the fact that I will research endlessly to get an answer. I won’t give up until I’ve found what I’m looking for. It doesn’t have to be the “right” answer. It just has to give me enough information to satisfy me for the moment.
I’ve been like this my whole life. I’ve always asked a lot of questions, tormenting my parents. Normally, I’d receive a quick response from my mom. She either knew the answer or she didn’t. My dad would play for a little bit. He’d string me along to see how my mind was working.
One day, I was riding with him in his truck. We were coming back from a job site (he worked in construction). The thing about being in a vehicle is that you’ve got a trapped audience so to speak, and you can sometimes get superior information out of people. So, I asked my dad why the sky was blue. He began explaining about light reflecting off the ocean and blah, blah, blah. That wasn’t good enough for me because it didn’t answer the substance of my question. I didn’t want to know what made it blue. I wanted to know why it was blue.
I’m interested in foundations, you see, and it seemed to me that there had to be some kind of significance to the color itself no matter how the color was generated. Telling me how the sky came to be blue didn’t answer why it was that color as opposed to red or yellow or brown. I said, “But why is it blue?” My dad said, “To make little girls like you ask questions.” That was the wall. That’s what he said when he was out of answers. I knew I wasn’t going to get anything coherent out of him after that.
I’ve hit a lot of walls in my life. I learned early on that most teachers don’t have answers that are not in a book. And that it’s taboo to question the source of the information itself. I learned that most teachers aren’t thinkers; they’re memorizers. This has always put me in somewhat of a conundrum because I’ve never been interested in facts. That’s what most books contain. And I couldn’t care less about facts. I’m interested in structures. I’m interested in the tools that create facts. Structures do just that. Facts change as structures change. Just watch life, and you’ll see for yourself. Facts are mobile, flowing things born out of the mobile, flowing things called structures. Most schools do not teach this.
Law school was different. A really good law school will disassemble the way you think by teaching you to question your assumptions. Many students are shocked to learn that much of law school consists, not of the professor telling you the answer, but of the professor asking you to invent the answer. It’s called the Socratic method. Students are even more shocked to find that there’s more than one “right” answer to any given question.
One professor, in particular, Melvin Zarr, is famous in legal circles in the Northeast for the refrain, “Law is a lawyer driven process.” His point is that the reason that students aren’t taught fixed rules of law in law school is that the law changes. In law school, you’re not taught to memorize (although you do a monumental amount of that too). You’re taught to think. And no matter what the law, the lawyer that knows how to think will have a significant advantage over the lawyer that doesn’t understand the mobility of the law, that doesn’t understand the centrality of the individual, that doesn’t understand the fundamental importance that the lawyer herself plays in the process.
This used to drive the engineers and doctors who were in law school crazy. They’d been taught fixed principles and facts in their previous professions and were always looking for the same in law. It just didn’t work that way in the legal field. Sometimes students would get upset because it looked like you could make an argument for anything, and wasn’t that unjust? This was especially frustrating to some when it came to morality. The more rigid the student’s views of right and wrong, the worse they did in classes like constitutional law, because the point of law school, once again, wasn’t to give the “right” answer. It was to exert the flexibility of your mind, and see a situation from as many angles as possible.
I wish our school system taught that same mental dexterity because it’s the font of creativity. It’s one of the reasons we decided to homeschool our son. We wanted to teach him to think. We wanted to teach him how to develop as many solutions as possible to any given dilemma. We wanted him to understand that life is open and flexible. It worked. He’s got a better grip on life than I do.
I wish this kind of flexibility for the world. People are amazingly sheep-like in their thinking, taking what they hear on the news and repeating it endlessly. I stopped reading newspapers in 1987, and it is a rare thing when I see a newscast on television or any other box. This is because I hear/see this in news: PLEASE PATTERN YOUR PERCEPTION AS FOLLOWS. Then they tell you how you’re supposed to view a given situation and, ultimately, your reality. No thank-you. I’d rather draw my own conclusions.
This is especially so when it comes to the “economic crisis” as of late. I’ll tell you, to me, it’s not an economic crisis at all. When I first read in the Elias material that the monetary system was going to be disassembled and that there would eventually be no form of monetary exchange, I used to mess around with the concept for hours at a time. There were the doom and gloomers who thought in terms of disaster. That is, there were some people who thought that there would be some sort of natural disaster or otherwise that would level the present structures, and then we’d start from ground zero. I thought that was pretty unimaginative. Instead, I liked to think about how you could peacefully disassemble the present structures and build new ones.
This was extremely challenging because I’d never thought about how you structure a society without money or without, at the very least, a barter system. You’re just not taught to think that way. What do you do if there are no banks, no currency, no systems for tabulating the exchange of products? What does culture look like? What do people do with their days? How do roads get built? How do people provide themselves with everyday needs and wants? And I’ll tell you, some of what we’re seeing today were answers that I came up with as I thought about these things.
By and large, we’re seeing a lot of peaceful changes in structures. This should be an exciting thing, but some people don’t see it that way. The media needs to sell itself, and it does a grand job if it has some sort of crisis to push. The crisis, however, is not a crisis. It’s an opportunity for the construction of new systems, and I think a lot of people are missing the boat on that.
The Dog Shit Analogy
I was taking a walk yesterday, and there’s a kiosk in front of one of the churches that I pass regularly. Yesterday, it read: “How to live and love in a perverse world.” This particular church tries to stay uplifting in its postings, but apparently the minister had been watching too much television because it’s absurd to say that it’s a perverse world if you’re paying attention to your everyday experience in this neck of the woods. As I’ve mentioned in previous blogs, Pacific Grove is one of the most beautiful, charming places I’ve ever been. It’s eccentric, friendly, and situated on the stunning Monterey Bay. There’s nothing perverse about it. In fact, you have to go out of your way to look for perverse to find it here.
But I’ve noticed that many, many people do not think for themselves. They don’t observe their surroundings, and they don’t grab their personal power and use it. They repeat what other people in “authority” positions say even when those people state things that are in direct contradiction to common logic.
I’ve often thought that this is akin to walking out of your house on a lovely spring day. The sky is a clear blue with a few puffy clouds. The bees are humming along from flower to flower. The birds are chattering. Everything is green, verdant, lush, and in bloom. But then you see that a dog has done his business on the sidewalk, and you become obsessed.
A neighbor is whistling in her yard, and you say to her, “Did you see this?”
The neighbor makes a face and says, “Yeah.” Then she says, “My asparagus has come in. Would you like some?”
You look at your neighbor blankly. Can she really be talking about asparagus at a time like this? You say, “But did you see this?” pointing to the dog doo.
She repeats that she had.
You say, “Well, we’ve got to do something about it!”
“I suppose we’ll have to clean it up, or it will get washed off in the next rain storm.”
You persist. “Don’t you understand? We’ve got to do something proactive about this. We have to form a committee and make sure all of the dogs are kept in their yards and that people take responsibility for their pets and that there is some sort of consequence for this type of thing.”
Your neighbor says, “I suppose, but you can’t legislate against a dog. Sometimes they get out. That’s life.”
Now you’re pissed. You’re thinking, “It’s people like her that allow this thing to happen. If it weren’t for that kind of attitude, this would never happen. She’s the problem.”
But, of course, she isn’t the problem. You just can’t get your attention off the shit. Your neighbor is right. You can’t prevent all the bad things from happening in life because you can’t know what’s going on with every person on the planet. Furthermore, you’re focused on one tiny, insignificant point in reality and calling it the important part of life simply because it’s unpleasant. You are being irrational and unrealistic. The world is good. You just have to turn away from the shit for a moment and look around.
What you see is determined by what you’re looking for. Many people look for crap because they believe smart people look for crap. This applies to the present economic situation. There’s nothing wrong with the economy. It’s changing. Change is not a bad thing. It’s a different thing. If you think that all is going to hell in a hand basket then you watch too much television or read too much crap written by people who do not think. People who talk limitation forget the most fundamental characteristic of humans: people hate boredom. There will always be people creating new things, doing new things, because individuals deplore boredom. An economy is nothing more than the activities of people. It will never stand still because people do NOT stand still.
Where we’re going as a world economy is obvious if you begin to use your mind in imaginative ways, and it’s not to hell in a hand basket. But people are scared of that word: imaginative. If you imagine something, it requires that you take your mind off the shit momentarily, and this scares most people. It’s as if the shit will grow if they’re not thinking about it. I say once again, this is irrational. When you take your mind off the shit, you see the world for what it is: a magnificent place.
I think if you read channeled material, you have an advantage simply because you’re mentally flexible enough to look at information that’s from “unconventional” sources. It should, though it’s no guarantee, enable you to look away from the crap long enough to see the beauty of the world. That beauty is an invitation.
We all come here, to physical life, for the creativity of generating new ideas. So, I challenge everyone alive to invent different ways of doing life, different ways of structuring interactions, and different ways of thinking. That’s the point. It’s not knowing the future. It’s inventing it. We have this incredible opportunity to invent everything. Knowing this, you can also know the very strong potentials for the future. This will give you a level of security you will never get from watching popular media.
You Want to Know The Future? Here’s How:
The future is participatory. You help determine it by the ideas that you ponder. You can get a pretty clear idea of where we’re going by engaging the following activities, which are anything but static:
- Imagine how you’d like to see the world function if there were no limits.
- Study the dream state and how it works. This will give you some clues about the changes that are coming.
- Watch your imagination and how it’s constructed. The imagination is intimately related to everyday life.
- Keep your eye on the science wave that will be moving our way. What, in terms of fundamentals, would radically change the way the average person thinks about how life is arranged? Think in terms of principles and inventions. There are going to be changes. How might these changes affect the way we take care of daily needs and wants?
- Keep track of anomalies and coincidences.
If you engage these activities, you’ll see trends. I guarantee it. You will see strands that will make future probabilities obvious. It’s not that the future is set. It never is. We came here to play, and play requires a malleable mind that’s willing to look at the world from many different perspectives, a mind that’s willing to try, to experiment, to invent, a mind that has the guts to turn off the television, stop hitting the same websites, and to quit reading the trash promulgated by individuals who haven’t had an original idea since they were children. It requires looking at yourself and your own power.
Start watching the toddlers, and you’ll get an idea where we’re headed. These are strong individuals with clear vision. And they know how to play. They are not going to settle for some serious drone, telling them what to do and how it is. They aren’t going to be convinced by televisions and websites and magazines and books and newspapers and other individuals who call themselves authorities. You shouldn’t either. These young ones are already referencing themselves. They’re examples of what’s coming.”
There’s a lot of good stuff in there, but what jumped out the most for me was the idea that we don’t have to look into the future to see what it contains. We invent the future! I like it!
Okay, on with the show…
What I’m thinking about today is along the lines of that Seth quote that says I am a God expressing my energy out into this reality. And it’s not that I’m a God among mortals, because everyone else is a God too, although most refuse to acknowledge it. And it got me thinking about some things. For instance, with my intelligence and skills alone I should be moving with a completely different crowd – intellectual people for example. But I’ve shied away from groups like that because… because of my precious intellect. Because I was afraid that my intelligence would be found wanting, and it was the only thing of value that I had to offer. It’s been easier to hang out with simple people because they’re no threat. And thinking about that today got me thinking about other people like me – there must be some people who are exploring their infinity – but I was thinking about moving into that world and thinking I’d have to face those challenges. But, and it’s a big BUT, the people I’m interested in joining up with aren’t necessarily those with the biggest brains, the biggest intellects or the biggest egos, but the biggest souls. And in that group there is no cutthroat competition. Even more important, there is no judgment. In its stead there is mutual interest, cooperation and support. There is a sharing of ideas and insights. See, I hate competition because if I win there’s no big payoff, but if I lose there’s been a sense that I haven’t measured up; I haven’t been good enough. But I’m doing away with self-judgment, so I never have to think about being ‘good enough’ again.
As I was walking over to Jim’s today I was thinking that this picture of the world isn’t right.. But I’ve been going on the basis that I’ve had no power to change this or that doing so would take great physical effort. I’ve had my answer to that for a long time, however. I am so powerful I’ve easily created a world where it seems I have no power. It’s been so easy to do that. And I am so powerful that I can just as easily express my power in this world. I also told myself on the way over to Jim’s that I may never be ‘perfect’ in my thinking, in my imagining, and I can accept that. My world doesn’t have to be ‘perfect’ either, but I’ve been holding my physical reality changes back until I could imagine it better, more fully, more perfectly. I’ve got the bones down, the things I desire, but I’ve been holding them at arm’s length – back and back and back, and I feel like it’s getting to the point where I may be testing the limits of my power in holding it back any longer. After all, I’ve been asking for it and denying its presence at the same time, for a very long time. Brings a new perspective to letting go, because I’m going to need a surfboard to ride this wave.
So that begs the question, what if my role in this life is to be an infinite being, and, by example, show others that they are infinite beings too? Something that came to me this evening is that there are always a million reasons on why I could deny myself something, but there’s only one reason to allow it. Coupled with that was another thought, which was that if I focus on what I want and not on what I don’t want but perceive to be around me, even in transition, people could say that I’m living in denial. However, if I’m holding myself back from those things I want and can have, if I’m blocking myself from being open to receiving All of the love and joy and wealth and understanding that is possible for me to receive, then which one of us is living in denial? This makes sense to me. It makes sense to me that I would find my own path, my own Way of Being, and a route through life that is uniquely my own. I celebrate that.
Here’s an Abraham quote:
“You have sole ownership of your vision. And the Universe will give you what you want within your vision. What happens with most people is that they muddy their vision with “reality”. Their vision becomes full of not only what they want but what everybody else thinks about what they want, too. Your work is to clarify and purify your vision so that the vibration that you are offering can then be answered.” ~ Abraham-Hicks
One more thing to add before I turn in for the night, and that is that I received an other e-mail today from Abercrombie and Kent offering private world trips, and I had a momentary thought that with all of the things going wrong in the world, to embark on private jet travel, etc. can be seen as extremely selfish and not very environmentally friendly. But I caught myself at that very quickly, because as Samantha wrote in her blog, those kinds of statements are based on the idea that the world is in trouble. I can also choose to live in a world where there are no environmental problems and where people live in conscious cooperation with the earth. This doesn’t necessarily limit the amount of material goods; actually it can be quite the contrary if people are living in harmony with the earth and living as enlightened beings because goods can be created without causing degradation in the first place. I gotta say, this excites me no end!! I’m not trying to decipher the future… I’m inventing the future!
“You were born into a state of grace. Therefore, it is impossible for you to leave it. You will die in a state of grace whether or not special words are spoken for you, or water or oil is poured upon your head. You share this blessing with the animals and all other living things. You cannot ‘fall out of’ grace, nor can it be taken from you.” ~ Seth, The Nature of Personal Reality, session 636.
November 27, 2008
Well, not much to write about today. I did have one thought this morning, which was that up to now I’ve considered that there are those who are sensitive to the world’s issues and those who are ignorant of them for any number of reasons. However, there’s a third group – those who simply choose differently. I’m in that third group. The reason I mention this is that if I think of my life as I desire it to be, it includes more physical ‘things’ than I have right now – not that I plan to buy stuff just for the sake of having stuff, but anyway. And this idea of traveling and having vehicles, seemed to me for a long time to be in direct contravention to my beliefs as an environmentalist, and one who’s working to help the earth heal, etc. However, I remember going to an elder’s house and being given a warm welcome and platters of food cooked by his wife and daughters, and it was such a wonderful gift to receive. And so I’m looking at my life now not as a contravention to living lightly on the earth, but rather as receiving and utilizing the gifts that the Earth herself wants to bestow upon me. My intention is to live lightly on the earth, and I can do that in many more ways by living the life of my dreams than I can without them. I can accept that now, and this is a good thing!
Okay, that’s it for tonight. Relax, let go, and let Spirit carry me!
“Creativity is always discontent – and always about new surprises. Therefore, the entity itself is never completed. You are learning to be conscious co-creators. But you do not always know what the creation, in your terms, will be.” ~ Seth, ESP Class, March 17, 1970.