She Says – New Year

Your conclusion that there isn’t enough of something—whether it is enough land, or money, or clarity—stems from you learning, without meaning to, a vibration that holds you apart from what you want. There is no limitation. If you identify a desire for it, Source recognizes your desire, and immediately begins to deliver it to you. And it will manifest in the variety, in the fullness, and in the way that you, and only you, learn to allow it.
Excerpted from the workshop in San Francisco, CA on Saturday, March 8th, 2003 #300

The above quote appeared in my Inbox on December 26th – Boxing Day. It sparked thoughts within me that have been mellowing around, ruminating and stirring up ideas for this last She Says post of 2009.

Many folks on New Year’s Eve will make resolutions – statements of intention. At the time they are made, these intentions are serious desires and plans for change and personal improvement.  A few of them will be kept and honoured and maybe even lived up to. Kudos to you! Most, however, won’t last more than a week. Some resolutions won’t even survive into the next day – the first day of the new year.

I was going to talk about why resolutions tend to fail. Bo-ring! Instead I would like to chat about something of significance to me personally. You may, or may not, know that I follow the teachings of such greats as Ernest Holmes, Dr. Wayne Dyer, Eckhart Tolle, and others. Daily inspirational readings have become a way of life for me – Abraham, Conscious Creation, Seth and more recently, Akemi Gaines.

It’s one thing to believe I understand what I read. It’s just as important for me to write out my comprehension of that personal understanding – the process I use for internalizing a new concept. Understanding something at the intellectual level – again, for me – is never enough. Writing it out makes the comprehension more solid. However, it still doesn’t affect change of, to, for or from within me. It is only when I have an “AHA!” moment of applicable proportion that I am able to get right into that new concept and adopt it as mine.  Talking the talk is a very safe act. Actually walking the walk  takes risk and immense courage. Yet the results are such an incredible, natural high!

Here’s a for instance: Through various teachers and teachings, we are currently being told that we are co-creators of our own reality. “Ask and it is given” is an Abraham-Hicks quote that captured and piqued my interest. I decided to try it. The logical mind in me figured that if I started with a simple request and got what I asked for, then I could expand out to something larger. So, to choose something simple I had the crazy thought pop into my head that I wanted to see a woman wearing a red scarf. Simple enough – except that it was the middle of a very hot summer. The probability of anyone wearing a scarf was highly unlikely, and specifically a red scarf made the chances even less possible. But that’s what I chose to ask for one Thursday afternoon. Then, as instructed, I forgot about it. I let the thought go, trusting that it would happen – or it wouldn’t. I was okay with it either way.

At the time I was in retail and was five minutes from closing up on the first Friday night after I put out my scarf request.  I heard the store’s bell tinkle the announcement of a customer’s arrival. Normally I’d not have bothered to look, busy as I was with other responsibilities. Yet that day, I raised my eyes from my work. I glanced up and did my best not to laugh out loud. In flounced the most amazing woman. As though she were making a dramatic entry onto a stage, she stepped into our store. With her arms flung open in a grand gesture encompassing anyone within visual range, and in a clear, bold voice she stated to no one in particular that she knew exactly what she needed. With that she strode over to retrieve her item and proceeded to the cash register. We processed and bagged her purchase within moments and she was on her way home. We locked the door behind her as it was closing time.

Now, had this woman been like anyone else, she’d have quietly come in and would have gone to get her item. I’d not have seen her as I was busy doing the closing up routine expected at end of day. However, with the flamboyance of this persona of a woman, I immediately became aware of her presence.  I was also able to see her entire show and with it, her attire. She was a very tall, thin woman with bright red hair and brighter red lipstick, white sandals, white Capri pants, a red and white checked blouse and – yes, you guessed it – a solid red bandana scarf tied jauntily around her long, slim neck!

That, dear folks, was my introduction to the concept of creative visualization. I learned that there is more to my world than merely what I see – more than having to live with the hand I’m dealt. I get to choose, to ask for, and to receive – things I desire.

Do I live the ideal life now that I know the ‘secret’? Not on your life! It’s been, and continues to be, a journey of self discovery, of successes and of failures – mostly failures. Yet I persist.  Each success encourages me to do more. I once would have said that I try harder. I no longer try anything harder. I now play and trust more – trusting in Source and my Self in particular. When I fail, I am more determined than ever to want to succeed. And so I persist and play again.

Do I get frustrated with the unsuccessful attempts? You bet! I rant and yell at God, the Universe, Source, All That Is, the Creator. I even swear!  Those of you who know me, know that happens very rarely.

What I’ve realized over time is that when I get in a tiff and rant and rave, my tirade is really being directed at my own Self. The Universe – God – has not failed me. I have failed me. I have failed to be open to receiving. My request – the desire I have asked for – is always there for me to receive. But if I do not allow it into my life, then there’s nothing the Universe can or will do to change that. The Universe is like that – it honours my decision, positive or negative – a true unconditional love. So the decision to accept or refuse the gift is mine and mine alone.

Why have I chosen this particular topic under the New Year’s heading? For me, the beginning of each new year is an opportunity for renewal. Refreshing my commitment to my Self brings all that I hold dear into the forefront of my mind, my heart and my intentions. Every day of the year I take a moment before rising to reconnect with All That Is and to sense and acknowledge my role in the unfolding of the soon-to-be experienced events of the day. Sometimes I’ll have a particular person’s name or face pop into mind. I’ll be sure to connect with them in some fashion throughout that day. My e-mail or letter will have been just the thing they needed to brighten their day. Maybe I get the impulse to go shopping (I hate shopping) so an impulse to do so is of significance to me and I make sure to include it in my day’s events – trusting that I’ll be inspired as to which store! One never knows the magic and marvel that will transpire in following through on that action – who I may meet, the smile I may give to someone who needs it, the book I may find or the individual I may protect from a fall down an escalator. This last one truly happened – and because I was where I was when inspired to bet there, I protected an elderly woman from being crushed by an escalator load of people who would have trampled over her had she actually fallen. My presence was like magic – I saw what was happening and was exactly where I needed to be to hold her gently but securely and to lift her tiny person to safety. It was like watching a movie – yet I was part of the cast of actors. It still amazes me to think of this event!!!!!

Back to my theme here: Acknowledging this lifestyle choice at the beginning of each new year gives me the impetus to open myself and my Self up to unlimited possibilities – to marvel and magic. It reaffirms for me the rightness of my way of living large. This reconfirmation secures the positive within and allows me the renewed freedom to play and love my way through life.

This year’s New Year’s Resolution: a declaration, a pledge to Self to allow all good things to come my way and for the ability to see their arrival and to accept the gift of it all – living life to the fullest!

Happy New Year, dear reader and friend! Come visit us again in 2010…

In Light & Laughter & Love,

Marcia

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