Well, as Marcia mentioned in our opening post for this week, this topic was chosen based on an ‘Energy Medicine Card’ she picked at work. It also ties in fairly directly with some information I’ve been receiving recently from those who guide me. In one way it’s a tough topic for both of us, in another it provides an opportunity for change. I think, if I could reduce down what I’ve been given recently into a few words (not an easy task for me!) it would be, “When you change how you see, what you see changes.”
Releasing historical patterns…
A quote, often repeated by someone I love dearly is, “If you do what you’ve always done, you’ll always get what you’ve always gotten.” ~ Anthony Robbins. And yet, the familiar can have a strong attraction. It’s known, it’s safe, even if it’s not particularly wanted. An old friend of mine, Paul Cormack once wrote, “Sometimes I think that loneliness is my best friend. He’s not much fun to be with, but he’s always around.”
However, this post is about releasing historical patterns, or at least being willing to examine them. As Walt Whitman wrote in the preface for ‘Leaves of Grass’, “Re-examine all you have been told in school or church or in any book, and dismiss whatever insults your own soul…”
That can be a challenge, but it can also be worthwhile. I thought I’d throw out a couple of examples from what’s been given to me recently. For one, I’ve invested a lot of years dealing with beliefs, examining pretty much every belief I’ve ever held, sorting through them and looking for those I felt were negative or limiting. Underlying this process was a belief that beliefs themselves are limiting by default, a function of the nature of beliefs themselves. Therefore, I’ve looked at ‘rooting out’ beliefs from a perspective of something I’ve had to do, a dirty but necessary act. What I was told recently is that beliefs are the lenses through which we create our world, the conceptual model if you will from which we create our existence. As such, beliefs are in and of themselves benign. We have complete freedom to choose beliefs that limit us or those that allow us to expand to our fullest potential. Perspective is the tool we have. It matters less what we do than how we feel about what we’re doing because the energy we focus onto our thoughts, ideas, beliefs and actions becomes the meter by which we measure the results of our creations.
Another example, something that came to me the other day is that while the physical circumstances of my life aren’t currently what I wish them to be, they are what they are and I haven’t been willing to give them up until something better arrives for me. In other words, I’ve seen the evolution of my life as transitioning from ‘here’ to ‘there’. My belief has been that when you have little you tend to hold tightly to it because if you lose that you have nothing. This has been exacerbated for me by the idea that mostly what I’ve been surrendering has been my beliefs, my thoughts, my… self in a way, and that this has been reflected in my physical environment. A hidden belief arose that when you give up too much of yourself you have nothing left and you ‘disappear’. I started with an idea that I’ve taken my unlimited infinite self and carved off a portion of it and called it ‘Me’. I then tried to stuff myself into a place and space too small to fit who I am. What I’ve been coming up against, time and again, are old ideas of myself, and it’s these old ideas that no longer fit. So, coming back to my physical existence, what I was given was the idea of washing dirt off my hands. If I want clean hands, I have to wash off the dirt, but if I convince myself that the dirt is all I have, then I become reluctant to wash my hands and I lock myself into a circle. The thought that arose out of this was, “If life wants to take something from you that you no longer want, let it.” By being willing to release what I no longer want, I open myself to receiving more of what I do want. The problem has been that for many years I’ve been unwilling to let go.
A related topic, offered for a friend but applicable for me as well, was that she needs to be willing to take more responsibility for the creation of her life. Those who guide me went on to say that when braving a storm it’s very tempting to get locked into a pattern of being able to withstand whatever the storm can offer, but that true growth comes after the storm has passed. Flowers bloom and grain ripens in the warm sunshine. This connects, for me, to an idea that growth only comes through adversity. Only when we’re tested do we discover the measure of our mettle, so to speak. What my guides had to say was that while experiencing a storm can make life seem more present, it’s not the best place to learn or to grow. True growth comes in peaceful times.
Connected to this has been another belief that growth is necessary for life. That may be true, but I’ve been looking at it from the perspective that I have to push myself to learn, to grow, to reach my potential. Even in sleep, I’ve used my dreaming time as more opportunity to learn, to accumulate knowledge and expand my perspective. This again has been a long-standing belief, partly because when I was little I was praised for excelling in school and it became a pattern. I’ve always seen myself as a self-avowed perfectionist. Now, there’s nothing wrong with that, per se, but for me it brings up a couple of other issues. For one, always seeking to reach my ‘potential’ means that I believe I am always less than I can be. For another, it means that much of my life has been tied up in striving to be more than I am and my focus has shifted from ‘now’ to ‘when…’ Unfortunately, ‘when’ is a nebulous term, and I become like the small child who kicks the ball forward every time he tries to reach for it.
Those are just a couple of examples of things I’ve been playing with lately. Another was advice from those who guide me not to see my infinite being as a ‘wall of water’ dammed up and straining for release, but more like the sun. One can hide the sun behind a blackout curtain, but when the curtain is opened the sunlight shines in with as much bright, gentle warmth as it always has.
One final word on this, and that’s something that I was first told a number of years ago. In a channeling session once I was told that I was trying to plough a field with a spoon, believing that if I couldn’t do everything I couldn’t do anything. As I’ve gone through my lists of beliefs over the years, I’ve often thought that as each series of beliefs was brought forward and released that I had to start over – somewhat akin to a cosmological snakes and ladders game but with only snakes. Beliefs are very powerful tools, but it’s important to remember that they are ‘our’ tools. We are not our beliefs; we are the ones who hold them. I’ve done a lot of writing over the years about various beliefs, ideas, revelations and the like, and often I’ve made long lists of things to write about as more beliefs have come to the surface of my awareness. In a recent talk by Jennifer McLean she mentioned that beliefs don’t surface at the beginning of our work, they come into our awareness when we’re ready to release them. Rather than engaging them and drawing them back into our sphere of influence, we can simply let them go. So now, when I have a long list of ideas float up into my mind I can write them out, examine the content, and often simply write, “Beliefs I Am Releasing” at the top. I don’t need to engage them, and I can focus instead on what I do want.
P.S. From Seth:
“… You are a multidimensional personality. Trust in the miracle of your own being. Make no divisions between the physical and spiritual in your lifetimes, for the spiritual speaks with a physical voice and the corporeal body is the creation of the spirit.
“Do not place the words of gurus, ministers, priests, scientists, psychologists, friends – or my words – higher than the feeling of your own being. You can learn much from others, but the deepest knowledge must come from within yourself. Your own consciousness is embarked upon a reality that basically can be experienced by no other, that is unique and untranslatable, with its own meaning following its own paths of becoming.
“You share an existence with others who are experiencing their own journeys in their own ways, and you have journeying in common, then. Be kind to yourself and your companions.” ~ The Nature of Personal Reality, session 677.
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